things that upset me and things that i hate often tend to make other poeple sad. poeple get upset when i say what i think. i guess that has always been true, usualy due to my wonderfull tackt and tastefull timing.
i think the nicer poeple are the mroe i make then feel bad wiht what i say. and the more they have less of an opinion the mroe they get ofended. the more their opinion is belive driven the more they get upset.
yesterday it was the kind harted reporter who with his zionist and placating notions, who thinks that religuos poeple are cool, that the ultra super kosher food is good and that begin with his facist notions is an A OK guy...
the other day it was one of the nicest poele i have ever met, i so wanted to be his freind, and for him to remmeber me in favor, but now i think this will never happen. even though i only had one or two proper conversations with him i can tell he is a nice guy who thinks i am an asshole. wich i am so that dosent really bother me, not as much as the fact i cant seems to tell when this shit is gonna happen and even thoug sometimes i do i cant bring myself to act diffarently. or i just dont notice it untill later when its too late. i hate myself when this happens. i sometimes cant tell when poeple will enjoy my humor or apreaciate it for what it is, and not take it literally. or not be too stupid to not see where i am going.
i guess spending all this time in the store around all these really stupid poele who come in and talking about them after they leave or wlaking around all these photojurnalists in late night beer sessions i have lost my limits. i dont know where the line is and i fucking hate it.
i want to go back to beeing a regualr person, wiht no verbal opintions, or at least one that dosent speak them. i want to try and be a normal person again, like i wanted to be when i was a kid. normal hair, normal friends, and a normal life. to be happy just liek all those other poeple on the street. even though i know they are living in denial i guess there is no reason to go against the grade.
words now pictures of yesterdya later.
i think the nicer poeple are the mroe i make then feel bad wiht what i say. and the more they have less of an opinion the mroe they get ofended. the more their opinion is belive driven the more they get upset.
yesterday it was the kind harted reporter who with his zionist and placating notions, who thinks that religuos poeple are cool, that the ultra super kosher food is good and that begin with his facist notions is an A OK guy...
the other day it was one of the nicest poele i have ever met, i so wanted to be his freind, and for him to remmeber me in favor, but now i think this will never happen. even though i only had one or two proper conversations with him i can tell he is a nice guy who thinks i am an asshole. wich i am so that dosent really bother me, not as much as the fact i cant seems to tell when this shit is gonna happen and even thoug sometimes i do i cant bring myself to act diffarently. or i just dont notice it untill later when its too late. i hate myself when this happens. i sometimes cant tell when poeple will enjoy my humor or apreaciate it for what it is, and not take it literally. or not be too stupid to not see where i am going.
i guess spending all this time in the store around all these really stupid poele who come in and talking about them after they leave or wlaking around all these photojurnalists in late night beer sessions i have lost my limits. i dont know where the line is and i fucking hate it.
i want to go back to beeing a regualr person, wiht no verbal opintions, or at least one that dosent speak them. i want to try and be a normal person again, like i wanted to be when i was a kid. normal hair, normal friends, and a normal life. to be happy just liek all those other poeple on the street. even though i know they are living in denial i guess there is no reason to go against the grade.
words now pictures of yesterdya later.
1 comment:
well, I have found the time to read your blog tonight. and I have to say that as a news guy i am happy to bring you the good and bad news.
the bad news is that you will never be a normal person, and so expcted that is also the good news!
you are a special soul attached to a huge database and why would you want to change that and become a normal person ?
all you need to do is to really learn who you are instead of putting all the energy into trying to change that you can use your energy to boost who you are and make the most of yourself and I promise promise that there is no better feeling in that world. not even the love of another person. because this one is yours only.
it is not an easy thing to find out who you are, so dont think that if you didnt find it yet you are late or on the wrong way.
I know that you do things with your heart because i see how you get upset and take everything so seriously, so try to use that.
yalla good night.
more tomorrow
Ouria
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