delays, all the beer in the world

two falling leaves from a tree cant change a thing. solitude and deterance dont motivate me to d o a thing. i am worthless like this. i am worthless pretty much any other way, i am producing an dlla and creating, but acting out like a dick instead of not doing not only what i hate when other poeple do but more over the tings i said to my self i would learn and never do again. i am a wek charechter and weak, little or no contence. they say the empty can rattles the most. and nothing changes i was sure anything is better then this and i went to bsotn with my eyes open wide and smiling and i walking in to this like a blind polio strucken rat.

a conversation can save me. but then again it might save me to a meaningless recovery as it wount answer any qyestuins i might have about the future.

i want to be a DNR.