the only place

to put a power line

by public demand

i am the guy who konw one knows the name of. if they do happen to remmeber they would porbebly be saying, oh that was the fucking antisemite asshole next door... or yeah that was someone i dont quite remmeber or know much about...

i should die in oblivion and obscurety

inside

arrangment

i look down. i find alot of intrestig things when i look at the floor. and miss all the rest.

leave your body on the other side

Did you ever try to fly?

Gali T bone

israelis, even educated and liberated ones act horribly, and are generally disgusting poeple. and then they act all surprised when obviuos and normal reaction to their behavoir is carried out against them, like the holocaust. they are shocked that someone would want to fire aimlesly at civil populations for no aperant reason, since the never did no harm to no one... all of a sudden dem god dam Airabs want to push us all into the salty water of the meditaranian, or any other sea that may be in the way. they all deserve it. my undevided attention is devoted to rage. since ouria mentioned it, i am thinking about it more and more. and its a good thing he never reads this shit, but he opend his mind, and a small part of the conversation i had wiht tess yesterday got me thinking about all kinds of things throughout the day, and the concolustion is that thats where i want to be. thats how i want to feel. i will get things back accordingly to the level i miss them or need them - but other then that i need nothing. owe no one nothing. and i will be as angry at the shit i see every waking second as much as i fucking want to.

ANTI - SI - PATION

anicip[ation for death, for pain, for the rain, for the cracles after youve lost it over 100 and your front end is sliding of position in slow motion. anticipation for retalition, ht esteven segal said anticipationf or death is worse then death it self. he was goos dam right. thees nothing to start your day with a fight and end it with an even worse internal fight wiht yur self and no want to do antying for your self to help. anti ci pation tears it apart, for a new thing, for a new person, for a new creation, for a negative first comming out of the fixer.

gold / kutching

We should be happy about each and every enraged teenager who we clasify as antisocial. wvwey time we see the so called normal teenagers who spit at their teahcers beat up their perants and have no social morals what soever, but dress according to the latests fasion ques, talk the formal slang and watch proper tv ratios of 99% commercial value and ZERO usfull information/news/inrichment value and 100% violence. social violence. ignorance goes along with other ailments. emotional nubmness, apathetic behaviour and no respect for anything, not even themselves. they smoke shit, drink and do silly things and as a result of thier total carelesness, that is also motivated but over welthy perants or poor prioreity poor peranrs, they are extremly violent towards their soroundings. they talk violent, do violnt, walk violent and are violent all around. they are out of control. and they dont care about it, because no one else cares about it. all poeple care about is the so called messed up youth, walking the streets, that cant fit in to any system structure, that defey the rules and absorbe less of the commercial value of life. have emotions and express them visualy and vigoursly. they are enraged teens, enraged for not fitting, for not having the choice to be stupid and ignorant like the rest. this also makes them violent. but they are mostly vionet towards themselves and inwards. we should be so lucky to have a hand slashing teen for every teacher bashing teen. societys way of dealing with this delinquency of its standarts it to turn a bind eye, then a crying eye to a "phenomena". the only way to survive as a teenager is to be angry. at everything. the only way to be a human is to direct your rage inwards and not aplly it to the surrounding.

news

the only way to survive the savage life is to be a vigalanty. if you do not creative active physical oposition to the world you are playing along with it. hence making some poeples days wrotten for "no aperant good reason" is a must. and this serves a verry important purpose. you are letting one person know the world he lives in is fucked up, so much so that it drove someone to tell him about it while screaming, to try and imagine himself in the shoes of someone really in a fucked up spot. generaly keeping to your self and minding your own bussiness is a verry safe thing to do, espeaily in a big violent city, and in general it not a bad thing. most poeple SHOULD in fact mind thier own bussiness and should more spasificaly stay out of MY bussiness as much as possible, BUT - however, yelling at random starangers that do bad things is an act of a deranged person, or is it? shouldent it be the other way around? noticing bad shit all the time and not doing anything about it? to mundaine, calm and relaxed, and most of all to "not interfear with other poeples bussiness" is the greatest crime of all. we are all benine - thats what makes us so bad. its by no chance that the word levantine refers to the historical regoin where the new middle east is today.

heat / rain

i feel like the wrotten depressing end of a downhill season of a good american tv show. some days are diamonds? none of them are, this is a tragic mass deception. its time again for the little bug to come out in the intense heat and die prematurly under the rain that falls in big huge chunks and drops, that collect all the dust and smut in the air and fall on your hands in a huge gulp and make them absolutly wet while its so dry.

i want to be a high incident bandit. i want to be that guy in the columbine like event. the guy who breavly fealesly walkes up to the shooters and overcomes him and knocks him down.

after he is pinned down and i am holding his gun in my hand, i will whisper in his ear "man, i truly belive in what your doin', but now, i gotta take you out"

then i close my eyes.

delays, all the beer in the world

two falling leaves from a tree cant change a thing. solitude and deterance dont motivate me to d o a thing. i am worthless like this. i am worthless pretty much any other way, i am producing an dlla and creating, but acting out like a dick instead of not doing not only what i hate when other poeple do but more over the tings i said to my self i would learn and never do again. i am a wek charechter and weak, little or no contence. they say the empty can rattles the most. and nothing changes i was sure anything is better then this and i went to bsotn with my eyes open wide and smiling and i walking in to this like a blind polio strucken rat.

a conversation can save me. but then again it might save me to a meaningless recovery as it wount answer any qyestuins i might have about the future.

i want to be a DNR.