memorandum

i went to see my granmother the other day. last time i was there she was talking and laughing, though she is verry old. this time only two weeks later, she cant hear at all, and bearly sees. i am not sure she knows that i am me. she did recognize me and asked me question. we had a small sign language conversation and then i left. she was upset saying that how can it be that all of a sudden she cant hear or see at all, and that only a fwe weeks ago she could. she looked disturbed and that i guess comes from her feeling trapped in a body that does not work anymore, even though she would still want it too. i cant stand this. i cant stand the thought that she has to be like this every day whether i am there or not. she is upset that this happens to her. though i am sure she accepts this and knows she dosent have much left like this. i wish for her sake, it will be less then more.