size

when cool poeple do cool things the result is usualy pretty decent. when i try to do cool things they usualy suck. not only are they far from snything i wanted them to be i never think up any good things. i want to be famous but there is nothing i can be famous for. i am as odinary as the next person. all my life i wished i could be like everyone else, and now i can enjoy this.

i am feeling pretty wrotten all over right about now. ym mind is racing in a million diffarent directions all at once and i cant seem to understand what it is i am trying to figure out.

cadance

december 29th. 2007

forward motion

at least up untill now. this is a dirty filthy place. religous people stink. the golden belly button of the world stinks. stinks of corruption, religion, racism. i cant wait for the rain to come and wash them all away. in the mean while aachmad will do it for me, every morning over again, and not complain once.

numbers

a photographic comment cam be made with difafrent arguemnts. kodak is a symbol for photography. a self relating, ars poeting reflexive idea defined by the meaningless name of a thing. a thing whose only purpose is to stand out. to un attached, and here unkowingly, henry eastman defined what was to be the future of postomodernistic defenition of photography. somthing, with a name, that means nothing, that can be anything, and made by anyone, can be sold as a comodity but still hold trancendental atributes.

money

i am ruthless, careless and generally an asshole. i understand why there are some poeple who think i am nice. or an ok guy. they also think i am a dick and still they make some transition in there atitude towards me that anables them to over look all the shit and use only the stuff that fits in there benefit. i ma happy to meet those poeple every now and again. i wish i could meet these poeple more often, and i think that if i did meet them more i might be a diffarent person, with better sicial behavior, not because beeing amonst poeple who like you makes u think you are liked because you are just fine, but because maybe you try to make an effort to be nicer.

under a golden racist sun

a new lens. a new tommrow. i had a revelation today.

strange that it came after a night of christmas charoles, and nonstop talk about me. my freinds talked to me about me. i talked to colegues about me and they answerd back about me. i got omer-lash.. im not to the 1.2 yet. one point four is pretty good though. no sharpness yet.

january holds new ideas. i had alot of important things to write here this morning. i guess i am just toerd of beeing toerd rfom the sillyt hings at work that make me work over time and over hard and get no benefit for. i am tierd of beeing tierd of all the fascist racist jews. i dont mind waiting in the line in the supermarket any more. microsoft rules.

like i said, yaniv weissa is a true jenius photographer, i am honored to know him and work with him. i am so happy i have the oprotionity to see somone whos phootgraphic ideas relate so similirraly to mine even though his interpertations is completly diffarent, and motivations are intense and derrrive from other places then mine.

http://www.waissa.com/

small tributes make all the diffarence.

another saturday

art history

education

religious people are just ridecules

deprevation

its time to write insughtfull things. its time to be heard. i think yaniv weissa is a master photographer. he is all that i want to be and cant ever do. strieght forward, upright and always in motopn yet completly composed. i feel somewhate better after a fwe sucssesfull sales today. i am not sure why, its not like i make more money if i sell mroe or for bigger profits, and i dont think its what zahi said about beeing loyal to the company. i work as far as my callery pais me too and not an inch further. i like having commitments that i enjoy doing. rearly do i find such things, but when i do i try hard to keep them close and not let go. i like curtain habbits and rutins that set my life in motion and keep it in order. i especialy enjoy those commitmnets that enable me to decline other commitments i might have had to commit to that i do not want to do. this is power of levrage. like aristo i need a big lift. today i read about an israeli local court ruling that ecknolaged the right of a person to seek penalty from the state for BEEING BORN. this is amazing. one can sue the country for the wrong doing and aiding and abeting that might result of his own actual birth. this ruling of course was in a case where the state did not aprove an abortion (how the fuck can someone not get an abortion when he wants one?? fucking jews) of an embrio that for some genetic reson would grow up to be a short stump. the state will now pay 750 thousand dollars restitution to this now infant soon millioner midget. but the problem does not ley here, it is where one has a shitty life, and who dosent? or somone tha for any reason would have ratherd he had not been born and can naw sue his perants for conceving him, and the state for not preventing this crime from happening.

fuck ups of the world unite - there is money to be made here, and apoint to be learnd. first of all DO NOT MAKE CHILDREN UNTILL YOU HAVE ASKED THEM IF THEY WANT TO BE BORN. if this dose not permit it self then JUST SAY NO! - say no to kids, the end to abbortion and needless suffering. no kids no pollotion, no human overpopulation, hunger, poverty and so on.

secondly you are guilty and responsible for every cconsience choice you make. make a choice that fuckes someone else over, he might grew up to be a lawyer (in israel there are 3 civilians for each certified bar lawyer) and fucking sue your ass.

life

1. stuff waiting to be sent out to trevor

2. scanner

3. light weather coat OD green

4. fan

5. printer HP 1300Z

6. ID-11 developer Box.

7. fork

8. Agfa rsx 50 O D 120

9. yale MFA portfolio cover sheet

prelude

Johnny's in the basement
Mixing up the medicine
I'm on the pavement
Thinking about the government
The man in the trench coat
Badge out, laid off
Says he's got a bad cough
Wants to get it paid off
Look out kid
It's somethin' you did
God knows when
But you're doin' it again
You better duck down the alleyway
Lookin' for a new friend
The man in the coon-skin cap
In the pig pen
Wants eleven dollar bills
You only got ten
Maggie comes fleet foot
Face full of black soot
Talkin' that the heat put
Plants in the bed but
Phone's tapped anyway
Maggie says the men they say
They must bust in early May
Orders from the D. A.
Look out kid
Don't matter what you did
Walk on your tip toes
Don’t try No-Doz
Better stay away from those
That carry around a fire hose
Keep a clean nose
Watch the plain clothes
You don't need a weather man
To know which way the wind blows
Get sick, get well
Hang around a ink well
Hangin' bell, hard to tell
If anything is gonna sell
Try hard, get barred
Get back, ride rail
Get jailed, jump bail
Join the army if you fail
Look out kidYou're gonna get hit
By losers, cheaters
Six-time users
Hangin' 'round the theaters
Girl by the whirlpool
Lookin' for a new fool
Don't follow leaders
Watch the parkin' meters
Oh get born, keep warm
Short pants, romance Learn to dance, get dressed Get blessed, try to be a success
Please her, please him, buy gifts
Don't steal, don't lift
Twenty years of schoolin'
And they put you on the day shift
Look out kid
They keep it all hid
Better jump down a manhole
Light yourself a candleDon't wear sandals
Ya can't afford the scandal
Don't wanna be a bum
You better chew gum
The pump don't work'
Cause the vandals took the handle

and more

homage to others

jerusalem nov 2007
Revere MA oct 2006

constructive thoughts

sunday 16 12 07

searching

what is everyone looking for?

friday 14

thursday

light. and lighter. abrasive. i will write. i have things to say. to do and see.

fixation

this morning in jerusalem. and another morning in jerusalem. i should have shot that third one at the ashdar biulding parking lot. but i dident. too bad.

blue ish

smogg over jerusalem. the haze and fog this morning made it look like the city was on fire. lucky for me i had my trusted 30 D but no memory card. what a waiste. i could have taken the RZ and shot some kids on the way home. yesterday i shot a roll. i need to get going again. the rain is comming. new tires wount save me.

absorbe

i often judge poele who are abtter then me as arogant, or condecending and well genarally idiots. i like beeing best. but i think that most of the time poeple think the same about me. every time i happen to come out on top or when i do things that maje e srtand out as better then other si think poeple gotta think the same about me. i am arogant. i am pompuse. i hate ot whne i do things like that when i act out like that. i want to be as regualr as any other person. i want to stay on line with every one else. why should i be diffarent. "why shouold he gert more be better do more and so on..???" well i shouldent. i suck. i wish i had never went to the army. i wish i had never met all those poeple. i wish i dident have to deal with what i do after i do it and that i could be sharp, and think things in a perfect way that will result in a proper action.

here are some older pictures.

retention

i have a new keyboard.

i like tess's blog. she is a really cool photographer. i hate the rest (not of tess, but eveyrthing that is)

terror ism isent a cause

i think that those bright moon lit nights where always brighter under a huge cloud cover, i could see for miles in the middle of the night. i could see as far as i could go and then see the moon rising avice the city. i liked walking in the rain when its like that. i hate walking in dark when its like that. i am still waintg to translate that song of the pure souls.